A huge thank you to all the incredible people out there who have reached out to me over the last few days. Thank you for all the offers of email addresses and phone numbers and everything else. I’m afraid I don’t feel strong enough to use them right now but it does mean so much to me that there are people who I’ve never even met who are thinking of me and caring.
I feel a little more positive right now. My mum came home to keep me company this afternoon which was really sweet of her. We do find it hard to communicate with each other but we’re both trying and maybe getting there a little bit. I made a big decision at the doctors. I didn’t take my prescription home with me as I knew what I’d do with it. I’m going to let someone else pick it up and dispense them to me daily. So maybe I don’t want to quit this world quite as much as I thought.
I have a couple of active referrals out there so will see what happens with those. Hell, I even have a job interview tomorrow afternoon. I even quite fancy the job. It’s a dispensing technician at a pharmacy, so probably mentioning the last weeks events wouldn’t be too clever… I don’t hold out much hope for actually getting the job but if I can get there, give relatively coherent answers and not burst into tears then I will have achieved a lot for me. And that’s all I can hope for right now. To keep surviving. Just a little bit.