I’m drowning in paperwork. Things that should have been sorted months ago. Letters that I have no recollection of receiving. Consequences of which I have no understanding. Threats acted on or implied. Trouble coming. I can’t even write it down because that would make it real. I have to sort these things but I do not know how. I cannot overcome the inertia required to make the first move.
It’s not fucking difficult Anickdaler, just pull yourself together and get on with it. Stop being such a pathetic waste of space, drain on society, user and abuser of friends time and generosity. You’re meant to be bloody intelligent and yet you can’t even pick up the phone. How worthless are you? It’s no wonder everyone hates you, it’s more than you deserve.
I’ve been back in the UK barely 36 hours and already I’m failing.