They’re all liars anyway. I’ve registered with a new doctors surgery. I first saw my new GP two weeks ago. He seemed ok and more to the point he seemed useful. I explained that I wanted a psych referral, pretty common sense given my diagnosis and fairly unstable history. I also rambled on about being worried that it would take months and months for my notes to come through and I didn’t want to be left languishing until that happened. He reassured me it wouldn’t be a problem. He’d phone my previous GP that afternoon, obtain the details he needed and then be in a place to make a referral if needed next time I saw him. He also promised to put my meds on extended repeat (after almost refusing to give them to me because he didn’t believe anyone would actually be on that dose :S ). Then he gave me a script for a fortnights worth. Except for he didn’t. Despite me stating I was an overdose risk, he still managed to misprescribe and give me 56 of one tablet rather than the requisite 14. They’ll go in the stash then. Don’t need it at the moment but it’s good to know it’s there if situations change.
Anywho, saw him again yesterday. Apparently he hadn’t spoken to my GP and besides, I should know he can’t do anything until the notes come through which could take 8-10 weeks. Lying git. I want help. Yes, I’m currently fairly stable but I want some safeguards put into place ASAP for if (when?) that’s no longer the case. It makes me really angry and upset. I hate people not telling the truth in any situation. I can’t understand anything other than honesty. I build my hopes and dreams on people doing what they say they will and when they don’t it crushes me completely. It’s things like this that give me major wobbles and as an apparent professional, surely he should be working to avoid such things?
You’d think I’d have learned by now not to trust the NHS and yet I continue to do so. More fool me.